Have you ever had a flashback of a memory from when you were an infant? Or have you ever sat there and wished you were a little kid again? I’m sure it has happened with each one of us, at least once in our lifetime. You cannot recollect everything that happened in our childhood. But certain events are stored in the Subconscious mind. Sometimes they peep through the mind’s eye.
As we all know that human life is divided into four periods: childhood, youth, middle age and old age. Childhood is the best and sweetest of all these periods because children don’t know the language of religions. They are innocence souls for whom every gender and every religion is equal. It is said that the childhood days are the best day of anyone’s life. Someday or the other we all think life was more easy and fun in our childhood and we start to miss those days badly. We all used to be good at a lot of things, we never feared taking risks then and use to celebrate every bit of life without any worry during our childhood. These memories carve your soul and mold your being.
We all do cherish our childhood days. Some of the common things that we usually remember from our childhood can be the first day at school, birthday celebration that we enjoyed, a fight with a friend or a brave thing we did as a child or an unexpected gift that we got, something naughty we did or a dangerous experience from our childhood etc. All these memories hold the best part of our life. These were the days which will never come back. I’m sure many of us will be having some of the craziest memories of their childhood.
You know the way we build memories from photos, even if we don’t have that many actual memories from the event? I think, for us, those are our happiest childhood memories. The stories we’ve been told so many times that they’re more like legends than just something that happened. The best time is recollecting those precious moments of our life by looking over the old photos and mesmerizing those treasured memories that were captured. Old photos help a lot in even recollecting the memories that have been washed off from our mind. It is the best way to relive those memorable moments of our life.
Remember the times when we as a child wanted to grow up fast so that we could be free from our daily study routine but looking back we understand, that was the best time of our life because now we realize that incomplete homework and broken toys were far better than unfulfilled dreams and broken emotions. As we grow-up; we start getting busy with other stuff in our life. Our life changes and so does our priorities. When we think of our childhood memories it leaves a sweet smile on our face.
It was the time when innocence was natural, when getting high meant on swing, when dad was the only hero, when love was Mom’s hug, when dad’s shoulder was the highest place on earth, when your worst enemies were your siblings, when the only thing that could hurt was bleeding knees, when the only things broken were toys and when goodbyes only meant till tomorrow. When you think about all this, you realize that life has changed a lot and there is nothing we could do about it. The only thing we could do is to cherish these memories in our heart forever. All these memories act as a great source of bliss in solitude and flash before our mind’s eye over and again and give us immense joy and pleasure.
Let me quote the words of the poet:ll
“Backward, turn backward, time in your flight:
Make me a child again just tonight.”– Elizabeth Akers Allen
Though it has been 7 years now since you left us all behind somehow I still feel your presence around. Whenever I come home, I feel you will be there in the kitchen cooking meal for us, watching your daily soaps or grinding baby food on millstones. Life has surely changed for all of us, the day you left this world. You were the homemaker, the one that connected us all together. Not a day passes by when you are not missed.
I wish you were here during didi’s wedding, I know your happiness would knew no bound. Since the day we were born, we three were more than niece to you. You were our second mother. I can imagine the excitement and glow on your face during her wedding and how you would enthusiastically participate in all the preparations. I still remember how much you loved to get dressed up. Time passes by so fast.
I still remember the time when I was crying so bad on my first day at school and you handed me a chocolate and convince me to go to school. Mummy could only work carefreely because she always had your back. You were there to look after us. Every morning you fed me breakfast, gave me a bath, took me to school and came back to pick me up.
It was your daily routine. I miss lying in your lap while watching TV. The time when you use to convince mom to buy me the toy I loved and when you even convinced didi to do my homework each time just because I gave excuses for not feeling well. You were always there for me like a guarding angel.The day when the doctor broke the news of your kidney failure hit us so hard. I can never forget those 15 days spent in that hospital.
I know you were scared a lot from inside but you fought it like a brave woman. All the dialysis procedures were slowly killing you inside and somewhere us too seeing you in all that pain. But nothing works before God’s will. I still remember the day before your death when you were sitting on the hospital bed. I was leaving for home and I said bye to you but you didn’t respond so, I patted you and said you bye again but you ignored it. So I left but while going I just happened to turn back and I saw you smiling at me and waving bye. I smiled and waved back at you and left for home happily.
The next day when I came back from college I heard that your condition was critical. Without any second thoughts I was rushing to the hospital but on my way, I got the news that you could not make it up. I went blank in the middle of the road and started moaning. All the memories just flooded in. I remember the last night when you waved at me smilingly and I wish I could go back to that time and hug you back. That single memory still never fails to give me goosebumps. It was your last goodbye to me. I never imagined it would be so heartbreaking.
I know you are at peace now but a part of you will remain with us forever. I wish I could have you by my side always. I know you are looking at us from above and I hope I could make you proud someday. I Love you and I Miss you.
I just wanted to dedicate a song to you which always reminds me of you-
“You tucked me in, turn out the light
Kept me safe and sound at night
Little girls depend on things like that
Brushed my teeth and combed my hair
Had to drive me everywhere
You were always there when
I looked back
You had to do it all alone
Make a living and make a home
Must have been as hard as it could’ve been
And when I couldn’t sleep at night
Scared things wouldn’t turn out right
You were there to hold my hand and sing to me
Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you’ll be
Can’t go far but you can always dream
Wish you may and wish you might
Don’t you worry, hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away
Butterfly fly away
Butterfly fly away”
(Butterfly fly away – Song by Miley Cyrus)
The years have just flipped like the pages in a book and here we have our life turned completely upside down. Even though it still feels like a moment of two or three days but surely it holds much more to it. I still remember the time when this marriage proposal came walking towards you. You were so excited and at the same time nervous too. For us, the feelings were mutual. There were differences in our thought but nothings bad that end well. And here we are there beside you, supporting you and there for you always. That’s what sisters are for, right? I still remember the time we were small and I being the youngest had all the perks of it. The time when I use to persuade our aunt that I’m not feeling well and she use to convince you to do my homework. Remember, how much pissed off you use to get on me? haha. All those memories are safe in our heart right from playing ghar ghar, draping mom’s dupatta as a saree, studying together to holding each other’s secrets. But now is the time when your life is going to change completely – A new place, a new family, new traditions and a new life. We can understand the pressure upon you and believe me someday or the other, every girl has to go through this strain. It is astonishing how a girl melds herself in her new life. A girl who never thought about the time has now become responsible and puts her family first in making any decision for her. I can’t imagine what feelings you must be going through at this particular moment but I just want you to know, we are here for you now and forever. You might go distance apart from us but our hearts are and always will be connected to one another.
Your Notorious Lil-Sis,