A Baggage of Feelings

Something pinch me today very badly. Am I a stranger to myself? All this time I bottled up my emotions, because I thought that was the best thing to do. To stop over thinking about the things that makes me sad. That’s what we all are taught always- to let go off the things that bothers us. And each time this things stroked me hard on my face, I let them go. But today all of a sudden this storm waves crossed the seashore destroying everything that came in the middle.

I question myself each time ‘am I doing the right thing?’ And each time I got the same answer- I dont know. Whom was I fooling all this while? Myself or the World? People say the world doesn’t care, then why do we care so much about the world? Because ultimately that’s where we belong. Do you share the same feeling?

With each passing day, my life is taking a huge turn and i’m juggling to survive in this ruthless world. I know somewhere at a point i have to stop it by myself. Sometimes I be selfish, I act crazy and sometimes I be a completely different person. It’s sounds funny like am going through split personality disorder. One moment i’m the happiest person on the earth, laughing my lungs out and the next moment I found myself surrounded by anxiety and depression. Life has its own way to serve you what you deserve.

One of the major thing which i realize during all of this trauma was, how you trigger your mind determines your way of life. The people close to you plays a vital role to help you escape from this Bermuda triangle of sorrow. Your parents, your friends or your loved one, whomever you are comfortable talking to. Just talk out it out your concerns with them and that will certainly have a positive impact on your life. It is always better to vomit out the poison of negative thoughts that would damage your soul.
Like they say it’s all in the head, don’t let the outer uncertainty destroy your inner peace. Life surely is a roller-coaster ride and not all days will be similar always. But in the end it’s all about how you make the most of it. So, live life worry less, Smile often and make the best of it 🙂

Anniversary- 3rd FEB – A Day that changed Everything

ANNIVERSARY

Happy 7th Anniversary 🙂

It all started with a mere wink at the college entrance. I still remember the orientation program at our college. It was the first time we exchanged smile. The smile that brew a heart warming friendship between us which turn out into a beautiful relation within a blink of an eye. I don’t know what attracted me towards you. Maybe your loving soul or your caring heart. Maybe your friendly appearance or your ambitious mind. Maybe your tikki nok jok with me 😉 or just your mere presence in my life.

You remember our first touch, the first time we held our hands- we never thought it would be for life time.

Our first kiss- that is the sweetest mistake we ever did;)

Our first date- I still remember the sunset at the beach. That beautiful end of a day started a beautiful relation for lifetime.

Over the years, our relation have gone through many storms(some of the deadliest storms) but it is astonishing to watched how it has helped us grow stronger each time.

Sometimes you know, i just feel like leaving you and going away because resorting to that seems to be the easiest option. And then i realize that with just a sentence, how shattered we would be.

How it would bring about the destruction of more than one emotion. I realize that i’ll know your importance only after you leave because that’s what they always say. But actually coming to think of it, i would really wonder about how amongst the millions of fishes in the sea, you are the nicest and cutest one.

About how people have swam out of my life so easily, moving on with the waves. About how you cooperate and adapt to every stupid thing i do and still choose to swim along.

About how hard it is to find someone who appreciates and motivates me like you do. And the one that scares me the most, about how difficult it would be for me and how many miles i would have to swim to try to find someone like you and how lucky i am right now.

I would realize how i would be losing out on a best friend; a person i chose to trust after so many years, a person i chose for myself. I’m sorry for the times i made you feel crap and acted unreasonably.

On this special day, i just want to thank you for standing there for me always, for believing in me and making me believe in myself, for handling all my tantrums patiently, for making me laugh when i found it difficult to even smile, and for loving me as i’m.

I Love You

Passion Follows

Passion Writing

I love to write… I buy tons of journals excited because they all begin blank than I slowly fill the pages with random thoughts, quotes and sayings. My passion for writing started when I was in 7th grade. English classes were great, but creative writing assignments made them better! I was more content with creative writing, rather than learning basic grammar rules. Slowly it turned out to be a hobby.

I’m an introvert person; I really don’t like to share my feelings with anyone. In fact I would love to write down my feelings rather than expressing it to any one. I write because sometimes I can’t talk to anyone maybe it’s because fear of judgment or just being left alone. I never knew I’d come to love writing as much as I do. Writing is like a best friend. My writing comforts me when I’m upset, & excites me when I think about certain people whom I cherish.

I would like to write short stories. Sometimes I have even been unsuccessful at my attempts. This will not stop my efforts to do so. I’ll just have to keep on trying. I now hope to have a professional writing career in the future. I want to turn my hobby into my career, overcoming my drawbacks.

Few months back, I wrote a short love story which I even shared with my friends. Reading it, they were very happy and insisted me upon making writing as my career. I love reading novels. I know I’m not the most perfect writer, and no one ever is. It takes time, but it’s worth the trials & triumphs. I want to see my self as a professional writer. And I really wish to see my name on the published book.

Chaos of Thoughts

The feeling of having everything fall into place and fall apart at the same time.

The feeling of being too young and too old at the same time.

The feeling of having everything go right and wrong all at once.

You don’t know why you’re exhausted?

You’re fighting a war in your head every single day

If that’s not exhausting then I don’t know what is.

 “The Village” 

It was my 21st birthday morning when the knock on the door woke me up. Lazily I opened the door. To my surprise, my best buddies were already at the door to wish me happy birthday. Not many but I have a few valuable friends in my life- Riya, Kavya, Rahul, Dale and Rohan. We are together from our kindergarten and over these years our friendship has grown even stronger. They had got few balloons and a lovely bouquet of my favorite flowers. That was really very sweet of them. It was a sweet and memorable birthday morning. 
                                     
We all decided to go out for lunch. Soon we got ready and left for our lunch party. We headed to the Raghuleela mall which is located in Khandivli. In Raghuleela mall, there is a restaurant called “The Village” since it has a theme of a village. I had heard a lot about it but never had visited it. As we entered, we saw a guy sitting like a munim (the accountant of a shop). He inquired us about the number of people for the visit and we had to pay for our meal then and there.
                                      
Further as we moved in, we saw a guy in dhoti with a transistor and he stamped our hands.The stamp was in circle with a VK letters in the centre. We got mango drink as our welcome drink. It looked like a total village fair. There were many elements which drove our attention such as village saloon shop, potter shop, post office etc. We then took our table which gave a feel of a local village dhaba. There were ladies dressed in traditional outfit serving food to all the guests. Some traditional Indian songs were being played in the background.

We were first served with the starters like Dhokla, Cutlets, matar potli. It all smelled and looked so delicious and mouthwatering. We were so hungry that we decided to jump up to the main course. I had taken mix veg. Dal, Pulav, Chole and Chapati. My friends tried Pav bhaji and Masala dosa etc. All the dishes tasted yummy. But the star attraction at that place was the entertainment. They played a puppet show which was funny and cute. There were options like Mehendi, bangles shop.
   
The place is surrounded by a banyan tree which houses a jyotish (a tarot card reader) and a jeweller’s shop. The shop contained traditional Indian jewellery. There were tables, cots and chairs everywhere. There were no reserved tables so we could move around anywhere we want to and sit wherever we wish to. We also tasted the Chaat at the Chaat counter. 

                                               
There was a broken truck in which we sat and click some amazing snaps to capture the moment. For desserts, there were Gulab jamun, Vanilla ice-cream and even Jalebis. My friends had got a birthday cake for me. As they had informed the management about it, they even played a “Happy Birthday Song” when I cut the cake. It was a special day for me and also a wonderful experience. 

A Letter to a Bride-to-be Sis

Sisters Love

Dear Didi,

The years have just flipped like the pages in a book and here we have our life turned completely upside down.Even though it still feels like a moment of two or three days but surely it holds much more to it. I still remember the time when this marriage proposal came walking towards you. You were so excited and at the same time nervous too. For us, the feelings were mutual. There were differences in our thought but nothings bad that end well. And here we are there beside you, supporting you and there for you always. That’s what sisters are for? Right. I still remember the time we were small and I being the youngest had all the perks of it. The time when I use to persuade our aunt that I’m not feeling well and she use to convince you to do my homework. Remember, how much pissed off you use to get on me?haha. All those memories are safe in our heart. From playing Ghar Ghar, draping mom’s dupatta as a saree, studying together to holding each other’s secrets. But now is the time when your life is going to change completely. A new place, a new family, new traditions and a new life. We can understand the pressure upon you and believe me someday or the other, every girl has to go through this strain. It is astonishing how a girl molds herself in her new life. A girl who never thought about the time has now become responsible and puts her family first in making any decision for her. I can’t imagine what feelings you must be going through at this particular moment but I just want you to know, we are here for you now and forever. You might go distance apart from us but our hearts are and always will be connected to one another.       
Your Notorious Sis,
Vrushu

Friendship – A Relation Beyond the Universe

Do you know the one thing that completes our School and College days? What is that which makes us miss those wonderful time we had during our childhood or teenage days? Its not the institutions nor the teachers, its the Friendship. The Friends with whom we have shared all those memories that makes us relive those days. 

Friends do play an important role in everyone’s life. They are our second family. We meet various people during our life journey. Some touch our hearts, some are just passing cloud and some are a part of our soul. These people teach us some of the important lessons of our life. That is the reason why we are always said to choose our friends wisely. They do play a crucial role in molding our lives. 

Nowadays relationships are broken by a single ‘UnFriend’ button. Yes! Though these seems rude but thats the bitter truth of our life. We all have build a huge wall around ourselves- a wall of Ego and Negativism. Why have we priortorized Ego over Love? Are relationships so easy to let go with a click of a button? No! Right? It’s time to  let go off this materialized world and bring out your inner self that is more happy in the happiness of others and you will see a new world revolving around you. 

Life now is unpredictable and so are people but that doesn’t make them bad, they are different! We have always seen that after a particular age we tend to take a backseats in relationships with friends while managing the rollar coaster ride between other relations.

 Friendship is a bond that is beyond this universe. These bonds are always special to us because it is beyond the relation of blood.

Writing – An Escape From Reality…!!!

writing is a therapy

Hello, Good morning Peeps!

Who all feel to have a life on your terms without the unwanted interference? Quite a direct question but the answer to this question will have a deep impact on your life.

I’m sure we all want a life where no one has the right to dictate us what to do, how to do it, and when to do it.That’s what we all want, right? And the truth is that writing can afford us such freedoms and luxuries. So why not try your hands on it?

It feels great for finally having an open forum to put down my thoughts. Over the years, I expressed my feelings to someone who was loyal enough that still hold all my stories and emotions hidden in it. Before you make any guesses let me tell you, my treasure box who holds so much inside it – my personal Diary. Yes! I can truly say my personal diary is my secret keeper.

At the tender age of 13, I became keen to write about each and every moment of my life. And it is so wonderful to relive those memories through my diary now. At a certain point in Life, we all have some or the other memories stored inside it. The most amazing thing about personal diary is that it is a very good listener. It might not give you any advice or help you find a solution but still having it with you will make you feel good because, at times we all need, is an ear to our problems.

As we all know that a true friend is always there beside you for your good as well as bad times, comforts you when you are low and grasps your thoughts when you’re flooded with them. That’s exactly what your diary does.

You can share your joy as well as cry out your pain with it and all it will do is listen to you very carefully. There is also a different comfort zone because every time you express your emotions, it will make you feel peaceful inside out. It is the best companion you can have with you.

Writing is an expression. You open your heart on a piece of paper and express it through words. It’s like having our whole life kept safely inside a treasure box that everyone is excited to open but only you have an access to it. (Unless someone accidently or purposely reads it down.)

That’s all for today. Stay tuned for more wordy thoughts

Ps: Excuse if any blunder or errors since this is my first blog