Childhood – Down the Memory Lane

Have you ever had a flashback of a memory from when you were an infant? Or have you ever sat there and wished you were a little kid again? I’m sure it has happened with each one of us, at least once in our lifetime. You cannot recollect everything that happened in our childhood. But certain events are stored in the Subconscious mind. Sometimes they peep through the mind’s eye.

As we all know that human life is divided into four periods: childhood, youth, middle age and old age. Childhood is the best and sweetest of all these periods because children don’t know the language of religions. They are innocence souls for whom every gender and every religion is equal. It is said that the childhood days are the best day of anyone’s life. Someday or the other we all think life was more easy and fun in our childhood and we start to miss those days badly. We all used to be good at a lot of things, we never feared taking risks then and use to celebrate every bit of life without any worry during our childhood. These memories carve your soul and mold your being.

We all do cherish our childhood days. Some of the common things that we usually remember from our childhood can be the first day at school, birthday celebration that we enjoyed, a fight with a friend or a brave thing we did as a child or an unexpected gift that we got, something naughty we did or a dangerous experience from our childhood etc. All these memories hold the best part of our life. These were the days which will never come back. I’m sure many of us will be having some of the craziest memories of their childhood.

You know the way we build memories from photos, even if we don’t have that many actual memories from the event? I think, for us, those are our happiest childhood memories. The stories we’ve been told so many times that they’re more like legends than just something that happened. The best time is recollecting those precious moments of our life by looking over the old photos and mesmerizing those treasured memories that were captured. Old photos help a lot in even recollecting the memories that have been washed off from our mind. It is the best way to relive those memorable moments of our life.

Remember the times when we as a child wanted to grow up fast so that we could be free from our daily study routine but looking back we understand, that was the best time of our life because now we realize that incomplete homework and broken toys were far better than unfulfilled dreams and broken emotions. As we grow-up; we start getting busy with other stuff in our life. Our life changes and so does our priorities. When we think of our childhood memories it leaves a sweet smile on our face.

It was the time when innocence was natural, when getting high meant on swing, when dad was the only hero, when love was Mom’s hug, when dad’s shoulder was the highest place on earth, when your worst enemies were your siblings, when the only thing that could hurt was bleeding knees, when the only things broken were toys and when goodbyes only meant till tomorrow. When you think about all this, you realize that life has changed a lot and there is nothing we could do about it. The only thing we could do is to cherish these memories in our heart forever. All these memories act as a great source of bliss in solitude and flash before our mind’s eye over and again and give us immense joy and pleasure.

Let me quote the words of the poet:ll

“Backward, turn backward, time in your flight:

Make me a child again just tonight.”

 – Elizabeth Akers Allen

Miss You – Wish you could come back

Dear Aatya,

Though it has been 7 years now since you left us all behind somehow I still feel your presence around. Whenever I come home, I feel you will be there in the kitchen cooking meal for us, watching your daily soaps or grinding baby food on millstones. Life has surely changed for all of us, the day you left this world. You were the homemaker, the one that connected us all together. Not a day passes by when you are not missed.

I wish you were here during didi’s wedding, I know your happiness would knew no bound. Since the day we were born, we three were more than niece to you. You were our second mother. I can imagine the excitement and glow on your face during her wedding and how you would enthusiastically participate in all the preparations. I still remember how much you loved to get dressed up. Time passes by so fast.

I still remember the time when I was crying so bad on my first day at school and you handed me a chocolate and convince me to go to school. Mummy could only work carefreely because she always had your back. You were there to look after us. Every morning you fed me breakfast, gave me a bath, took me to school and came back to pick me up.

It was your daily routine. I miss lying in your lap while watching TV. The time when you use to convince mom to buy me the toy I loved and when you even convinced didi to do my homework each time just because I gave excuses for not feeling well. You were always there for me like a guarding angel.The day when the doctor broke the news of your kidney failure hit us so hard. I can never forget those 15 days spent in that hospital.

I know you were scared a lot from inside but you fought it like a brave woman. All the dialysis procedures were slowly killing you inside and somewhere us too seeing you in all that pain. But nothing works before God’s will. I still remember the day before your death when you were sitting on the hospital bed. I was leaving for home and I said bye to you but you didn’t respond so, I patted you and said you bye again but you ignored it. So I left but while going I just happened to turn back and I saw you smiling at me and waving bye. I smiled and waved back at you and left for home happily.

The next day when I came back from college I heard that your condition was critical. Without any second thoughts I was rushing to the hospital but on my way, I got the news that you could not make it up. I went blank in the middle of the road and started moaning. All the memories just flooded in. I remember the last night when you waved at me smilingly and I wish I could go back to that time and hug you back. That single memory still never fails to give me goosebumps. It was your last goodbye to me. I never imagined it would be so heartbreaking.

I know you are at peace now but a part of you will remain with us forever. I wish I could have you by my side always. I know you are looking at us from above and I hope I could make you proud someday. I Love you and I Miss you.

I just wanted to dedicate a song to you which always reminds me of you-

“You tucked me in, turn out the light

Kept me safe and sound at night

Little girls depend on things like that

Brushed my teeth and combed my hair

Had to drive me everywhere

You were always there when

I looked back

You had to do it all alone

Make a living and make a home

Must have been as hard as it could’ve been

And when I couldn’t sleep at night

Scared things wouldn’t turn out right

You were there to hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree

How you wonder who you’ll be

Can’t go far but you can always dream

Wish you may and wish you might

Don’t you worry, hold on tight

I promise you there will come a day

Butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away”


(Butterfly fly away – Song by Miley Cyrus)

Yours lovingly,

Vrushu

Strangers with Memories

“Life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you’re gonna get.”

 Forrest Gump


True, to this line. Life is certainly unpredictable nowadays. You will never know what’s lying ahead in the future. Sometime it might appear as if you have a control over it and the next moment you find it uncontrollable. Life is a journey without a passport, no matter whatever happens you just have to keep travelling till the last stop i.e., death. Life waits for no one. You will meet several passengers in your expedition but not all will be there with you till the end.

Always remember the people who we meet in our life, meet for a reason. Not all encounters would be enthralling; there will be some that will tear us apart. We find souls with whom our lives intersect in such a way that we feel like it could never be separated. But it is distressing how a person whom we knew so well, with whom we shared our deepest secrets, fears, and happiness; have now become a stranger for life – A stranger that only shares a plethora of memories. There will be certain people who will not be in our life but a part of them will be there with us forever. No matter what, they will always have a piece of our heart.

There will be times when you will miss them badly. The places or restaurant you visited together, the songs you dedicated to each other or the time when you talked for hours will remind you about the beautiful time you shared with them, leaving behind a small grin on your face. It is sad that some people leave us for their selfish motives and reminisces about their memories with us become more painful. We tend to question our own senses and try to build up walls around us just because they stabbed us.

Don’t restrict yourself just because someone is incapable of finding your worth in their life. If they couldn’t value your presence in their life, it’s their loss, not yours. Keep no regrets, forgive often, and live to the fullest. Even though things didn’t end well, it had started great. Concentrate on the good things and let go off the bad memories. Keep all the memories alive in your heart because they are the happy moments that need to be cherished forever.